Self Sabotage
Many of us are contemplating or actually beginning something "new". Whether it is a new job, new relationships, new hobbies or an entire new way of being, most of us will encounter some sort of fear response, such as self sabotage or procrastination, as we encounter or consider the new. However, self-sabotage and procrastination aren't necessarily a "bad" thing and can actually be survival mechanisms. For you see, they are meeting some type of need inside ourselves, and it happens to all of us to a certain degree. And, every behavior we have serves us in one way or another. And, we self-sabotage and procrastinate for many reasons, and it’s different for everybody; most often it’s coming from a part of us that just wants to feel safe. The key is to work with these parts, not against them, and not trying to get rid of them. When we work with them and integrate them, we experience more energy, and they become a source of great strength and wisdom. Today, take some time to see where you just might be self sabotaging or procrastinating on your current progress. Today recognize that your self sabotaging behaviors are a cry out from you inner child that does not feel safe and cannot be ignored or rationalized away by your mind. Today make those behaviors your friends for they will show you where you are in need of healing. When you see your symptoms as catalysts to understanding yourself better, you have the opportunity to integrate healing lessons. By allowing yourself to give yourself the safety that you seek, you will be able to heal and overcome self-sabotage. Today acknowledge that all parts of yourself are valuable and need to be heard, seen, loved, and accepted unconditionally. Each part has an important message for you. So today be kind and gentle with yourself. Instead of feeling down on yourself for sabotaging yourself, dig below the surface to understand what you’re really afraid of and how your behavior may feel like safety. When you understand why you’re hurting yourself and holding yourself back, you’ll finally be able to let go of what doesn’t serve you and get what you need and what you want.
Just for today, I release all destructive fears and doubts. I let go of all fear and doubt and Life becomes simple and easy. I am enough exactly as I am. I forgive myself for not being perfect. I am living the best way I know how with the knowledge, understanding and awareness that I have right now. I love, accept and approve of myself, exactly as I am right now. I am safe, divinely guided and protected. And everything is always working out for my highest good. And so it is.